My Journey Starts

I am going on a long journey but am not going an where..
As you will read in my other blog..
I am learning who I am, and who am I supposed to be..
And this is not a journey I travel lightly with..
For with me I am taking  a few things...
A Tattered Bible.. Marked and looked over

I am Taking self and throwing it from a high cliff..and telling it I dont need you..because all you are is flesh..(not literal....its a death that I have to have...in order to live for my God..) Its not a literal Death..its that I have to kill off the part of me that ...dose not want to take this journey...that likes it the way it is... that just is fine with being of this world...and being self minded, even though its not that I have been selfish as I place many people over myself, it is that echo in my mind...'come on you need to do this...you need someone..you need love,' But what this voice what this self dose not  see is the love all around me, I do not need what  the world wants to say I need, 'you  need a man..you can't do it on your own..' this is what it wants you to think..but My God never made anything that I can not go through with him. If I am here alone, well maybe there is a reason, I have not yet gone on this journey..many years have gone by and I have been told long ago I needed to But the world's idea of life got in the way, and I let it.. So now, I will battle this part of me, do the death and even if its daily...monthly ( no ploy there...) I will keep on because what is worth knowing and finding,,it what am I set out to be from God. Not man, Not their ideals, but Gods. and This is what I will find, alone or with someone , I can deal because I will not look through their eyes, I am alone for now, but so loved, that one can only add to it not take a way from.

And I will be taking  the Me.- Me that  I am taking is more than flesh it is not made for man, it is not made to please its self...for it was made to bear and create life for life was given to me, and gave for me not for my self but so that I would show others who I am living through..

This journey is not for the weak, because I am not taking much to do,  I am taking  many note book, and pens not because I am sure I will not make mistakes..but because i am taking many notebooks....

This is the start of my journey though I am not leaving any where I am finding my self...And the person that I am to be.

Friends have warned me that this journey will take months maybe years, but I am well worth finding, and Maybe one Day ..Well that will come to be a good thing, because I will have known me longer , and know that I am worth Finding, be cause I have found me, and if others don't look at me like they should, because of it, or who I am well this might be their loss.. Thank you.. and Here we go going to pack and find a nice shade tree and find me...( okay for the literal minds ...I am going to rest and think.. stock up on needs...and caffeine and start soon...on this journey...)

Oh Lord ---when  I need you--- in mist of all my pain – oh Lord when I cry---- out your name oh lord you hear me even through— the strongest rain…-you may never answer me…. When I want you to… oh lord…You bless me when I least expect you to….So I sing this song for you…even when the world doesn’t want me to…they ----don’t know that you -------bless them too…so…..Oh lord---I will go---on---Praisin’ you-----Til  I----See you…In That Far Of Land….Your gunna Take Us to…. So-- Oh My Lord ….. I Thank You …Lord